Stale Seventeen

Happy Birthday to Me~ 

:D

Turned 17 today, officially
I don't know whether to be happy or not ._.
I'm waiting for my cake though :P



School was normal,
but since it was my birthday,
had birthday wishes and unexpected gifts,

That was always the best part about everything :)


-I Love Surprises-

Dad wasn't able to have dinner with us today :(
So, it wasn't a total celebration... yet
Most like will be having a family dinner on Sunday :))


But either way, Mom brought us out for dinner.
First time having Korean food :)

Ate at Dubu Dubu, Mid Valley :D

Here's a picture of my Beef Bulgogi ;)

Though it's fascinating, can't say that I'll be having Korean again.
It just doesn't click with me =/

But I'll eat it once in a while ;D

TEEHEE. Gonna go now. Tired. School tomorrow. Ugh.

Baiii <3

Jessica <3

The Start

School officially started last Wednesday. 

To my surprise, we already had work to do on the VERY FIRST day :(

But we were allowed to reuse our Form 4 exercise books, 

Sadly, most of mine probably would have been incinerated by now :((

I'm such a bad citizen =X

On the bright side, I've got presents from my friends =) 

They were some AWESOME-LY cute presents :)) 

Ta-dahh~ My Lovely pressies <3

Just in case you couldn't see the pretty necklace given by the oh-so-awesome Phengamon (inside joke), here's a close-up: 

ISN'T IT JUST AMAZINGLY PRETTY?!?

I got those presents on either Thursday or Friday, 

Let's talk about today! =) 

Woke up at 6AM to get ready for my 5 hour undang course. 

Went to the driving school at 7AM cause they told me to.

Took about an hour BEFORE we even left for Damansara =3=

Was expecting like some really cool place for our undang lecture 

But we ended up in some sort of weird caravan classrooms... At least they have air-conditioners :D

Otherwise both the students and the teachers would've been fried under the Malaysian weather =X

Oh Oh! And we also got some sort of cool smartcard B)

I wouldn't say I met tons of friends

Since I am "half banana" and most of them there aren't the least bit "bananas"

I did meet this dude, whom I did not get his name throughout the entire thing nor did he know mine =O 

But I did manage to FINALLY socialise with these two girls whom... I also forgot their names =X

Conclusion: If I don't learn how to socialize soon, I'm going to be forever alone :((

But the first half of the course was great. It was funny and all. I shall stop before I talk about the second half :x

Well, that was technically ALL I did today since I came home only at about 4-ish. So yeah. 

AND GUESS WHAT?! 

I FOUND OUT THAT WONGFU IS COMING TO MALAYSIA!!! 

OMG! TOTAL WONGFU FAN HERE!! *fangirl scream*

I SO TOTALLY WANNA GO!!! BUT OF ALL YEARS. =3= 

I'll get my butt there I tell you :X

Oh well, I'm sleepy now. Baibai~ xD

Jessica <3

Countdown :D

Hahah I know the countdown for New Year's is over. I'm counting down for the start of the school semester X_X 

It's gonna be time to study like some freaking maniac soon. This year's the time where I gotta sit for SPM. Die die die x3x 

If only I could be like this lady right here 

Holes Inside - Joe Brookes is for SOME reason playing on my sister's iTunes. LOL The song isn't that bad actually =P Hahah 

Been buying CNY clothes lately, can't say I bought much. =/ Trying to change my style this year, but I'm kinda having problems with them. I need help. =|

Went to the Kenanga Wholesale Plaza yesterday. Went to Sunway today. Oh gawd, I swear, this holiday has been so FULL of shopping. LOL 

Well, my sister's blog is kinda cool, so I'm gonna learn how to do cool stuffs with this. NYAHAHAHA >=D

Honestly, I'm so jealous of her. =/ 

Oh psh, there's nothing much to say actually so I'll just end here =) 

Bai~ xD

Jessica <3

Resolutions

Happy New Year to All! 

It's already the last day of the year. Right now in Malaysia, we've got another 58 minutes before we enter a new year. Thus, making us all grow older. Hahahahah 

New Years Eve, who do you spend it with? What do you do? 

Pretty much, I'd usually give the priority to my family, 

Oh Family Guy =)

Then if I had the choice, I'd want to spend it with you. <3 

Last year, I had the BEST New Year's eve celebration EVER. It was a time where I had confessions, new aims and goals, and finally, a new love. 

This year (2011), I've achieved so much I'm very proud of myself. But not proud enough. I need to work harder. And as I reluctantly welcome 2012, I also want to make it one of my best and memorable years I've ever had. 

My resolutions for 2012, will be exposed here and also will be kept in a book where I will look at, and try to achieve as much as a I can. 

2012, I want to: 

~> Not procrastinate

~> Achieve better results

~> Avoid distractions

~> Finish my homework

~> Be a better friend

~> Spend as much time as I can with my friends and family

~> Learn how to Drive

~> Earn my A's

~> Study

Yeap. That's what I want. Haha. Now to get a list printed onto my book. I'm too lazy to re-write it. 

This will be my last chance to enjoy being lazy. Before that clock strikes 12, I will enjoy the remaining time of 2011. 

Dramatic, but it's fun! =) 

Listen

Slow and Steady Wins the Race 

I just felt like blogging.

Decided to try out slowly developing a new skin. It'll take time, but it'll be worth it =) 

I've just realised(via a video) that as a person, we are really spoilt. We often complain, avoid, slack, and most of the time just wish that things would go our way. 

No offence to the readers, I'm in a way scolding myself too. 

We often say out loud our wishes, and desires. And also our vision of our future. We say we want "That". The luxury, the happiness, whatever we want. We say we'll get it one day. Some actually work for it. Sacrificing all the things people would normally give in to. Most of us, give up. 

Take me for instance, 

When I become frustrated, I give up

When I don't get things that way I want, I give up

When People don't get what I'm saying, I give up

When I try to improve and I don't, I give up

I definitely NEVER in my entire life, admitted that I'm a quitter. 

I've always been so stubborn, I've never admitted things that I may be wrong.. not at first anyways.

I've been so selfish, I start to close up to everyone around me.

But you know what? Right here and Right now, I admit. I AM all of the things above. I have always been. And I am not proud of it. 

I want to change my bad habits(I'm pretty sure there's a long list of them). I don't want to be called arrogant, stubborn, selfish and all those nasty things you can think of. I want to improve in everything, 

My Studies, 

My Relationships, 

My Social Life. 

And I will try my best. Even if it means sacrificing my feelings, I will be able to cope. 

Reflect on yourself, Only you can judge. Only you can bring yourself together to be who you WANT to be. 

IN another event...

I don't think that post before this made much sense. o.o But. I do want to change, and well, I guess that was my way of releasing myself. ><

I'm really proud of myself because for once, during the LONG holidays, I repeat, LONG holidays, I've been studying... Reviewing actually. And I have never done that before. I am really grateful that I finally have the motivation to study and of course, next year, I'll probably spend a lot less time on my precious gadgets. I know they'll be waiting for me. 

Tata~ 

Jessica <3

It's good to sacrifice luxury once in a while, 

Because once we achieve what we want, 

We can have all the luxury we want

Without Fail. 

After Finals!

Hey ya'll! I know, it's actually as if I have this blogging problem or something. But the truth is that I'm currently taking a break from my studies and I've been searching the net on how to make money blogging. =)

Seeing as I technically LOVE to blog but don't really have the time, I'm going to make full use of my time now and blog as much as I can before my schedule starts getting hectic again. :D

I've already set up some goals for my holidays and my #AfterFinals and since it's AFTER FINALS, I'm going to work hard to achieve it and make it a productive holiday. =)

Basically, my goals are:

1. To learn how to make money
2. To learn how to cook
3. To reinforce my Form 4 studies
4. To study for fun and not for exams
5. To not stress myself out
6. To work on my stories
7. To blog more
8. To get my blog to have more traffic
9. To learn as much as I can
10. To spend time with my family, friends, and You. =)
11. To get a fit body

Man, that's a lot. But I'm pretty sure I have more. In my opinion, I will work hard to achieve all this because by next year, I want to be able to have the habit of studying consistently as my SPM is next year. And while searching for some tips, I actually came across a quote that I think I should follow myself:

Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

Yeah, that's it for today. God, please bless me that I can achieve all my goals. =)

Toodles~

Jessica.  

Have a Cuppa~

Ahh coffee~ 

Stuff that keeps us awake 

And make us look like we're having insomnia =)

Hahaha honestly, I don't get why I'm so stressed up. I mean like, I've been thinking about one particular situation and getting so frustrated over it I feel as if I was drunk the next day. 

Actually, it's only been a day. LOL I KNOW. Anyways, I ended up waking up at 12. Which was kinda shocking cause I woke up thinking it was 10am. Hahahaha~ Then I called someone. =P Hahaha I woke up, thinking what happened that made me sleep at 3am. And I realised that, I'm just being stupid. 

If I were to make everyone happy, I should do the right thing in the right way. I will not really neglect every single human in my entire life, cause being alone isn't really fun even if sometimes we prefer it that way. =) Everyone needs at least someone in their lives =) 

I will be there for my friends. I will try to help them. But with caution and I will try to avoid conflicts. And in the process, even if I get hurt, I won't complain, I don't need to tell anyone because I'll feel good that I helped people. I guess, it's just my conscience. 

Since young, I've always wanted the somewhat impossible. I just wanted everyone around me to be happy and live their lives. But as I grew up, I found out that helping people can cause that one person to feel good, but can also simultaneously cause people hurt. 

I know it's inevitable but I will try. Even if the hurts ends up coming to me. I've been dealing with so much hurt in me, I learn to ignore it. For a long period of time anyway. Hahaha Yes, I know I'm sappy. ;) 

My parents tell me to not stress myself so much and not hide it all inside. But it's just how I am. I feel as if my problems aren't as big as those that I help. In the end, I feel as if my problems aren't as important. And I do get hurt easily, maybe that's why I was called a crybaby when I was young. But my parents told me it's good to cry now because I've been keeping everything inside. 

I've kept my feelings because of fear that I'd get rejected from society. I've kept my tears because I fear of being scolded and being called a drama queen. I end up having the logic that my problems aren't big. ;)

I don't want that to happen to people. Not my future family, not my family, not the people out there. I want people to be able to express their feelings in considerable way that they won't hurt anyone else. I want them to confront the person who are hurting them. 

I have been hurt by my friends. But I don't have the courage to speak up for I fear that they'll hate me. I always did. And when the rare times that I speak up, I end up in an argument and in the end, I lose to avoid it being worse. That's why I keep it in. (If my mom sees this, I think she'll watch me super closely. O.O) 

Even when I get hurt by my friends, I don't know why, but I still love them. Even when sometimes, they don't know much about me cause I keep it in, I still love them. Even when they say things are my fault, I still love and care and take the blame. I still love them cause they're my friends. ;) 

OMAIGAWD. I need to stop talking. Hahaha thank goodness no one reads this. Yet. =X 

To those who read this, I am not a sad person. I'm not pitiful. Lol. I'm perfectly fine and I am enjoying life kayy? =) 

Toodles! xD

Jessica.