why am i a rajin blogger?? rawr. xD Anyways.. hmm... what to blog about?? xDDD

Well, there is some stuff that I'm like confused over.

1. Accounts

Don't ask. It's just confusing. xD

2. Why on earth do I feel like crying?

I dunno, for some reason today, I keep feeling as if I wanna cry so bad but can't seem to know why...

3. Why is the atmosphere around me so different?

Something's going wrong somewhere... it's either all in my head or it is...

AIHS. Oh wells.. can't really find answers to that now. =/ I just don't feel as if I'm in my usual happy condition... something's bothering me... and I don't know what... maybe it's because I don't wanna know why... but one thing's for certain that pisses me off... it's relating everything I do to a relationship I have with friends or family. It's frustrating and I dunno it just makes me in a bad mood. But obviously I will not to show it.

Cause I'm that way. =)

For some reason, I dunno why, I have this urge to just find a peekture to post before every entry now. xD

ARGH!! EXAM EXAM EXAM. RAWR. RAWR. RAWR. it's so neaaaar..... yet so far(I wish) D= I still need to practically UNDERSTAND accounts... study the other 9 SUBJECTS. D= I pity the others who's taking like waaaay more though. =P And more things are coming up... cause sadly, I, as one of the CVSC's for my dear st john ambulance(no sarcasm intended) have to come up with stations on where to place people for the upcoming annual cross country run... gonna meet with casualties again. =)

And, honestly, why I'm posting now is unexplainable. Like seriously. I dunno why. xD I gotta study~ But I'm dead tired now.. D= feel like just falling asleep seeing as I'm practically lying on my bed now. xD and, tomorrow I'm gonna complete my homework(s) as usual, and don't worry, I've done most of it. I think. xD And, Imma bug my parents to give me a crash course on accounts. And THEY PROMISED TO TEACH. XD

Oh vells, lazy to continue, shall blog when.. I feel like it. xD Baibai~~~ xD

Just felt like blogging. Why? I dunno. =)

I successfully survived the day~~ Kinda happy too xD

1 month is about to end and another will continue..

Time just passes by oh so fast doesn't it? xD

Now, all that's left is to wait till my doubts fade away...

I really hope it will... I have a good feeling about it... =)

I'm really sorry if I've doubted you so much that you'll feel super down...

I'm really sorry if I've ever neglected you about something else...

But I'm really grateful that you've been so understanding the whole time..

And I'm really glad to have you. xD

OF COURSE I'M GLAD TO HAVE MY OTHER FRIENDS TOO. WHICH I WILL DEDICATE A POST TO THEM. THE MOMENT THEY COME TO READ THIS OH SO DUSTY BLOG. XD

Anyways, exam is near... and I NEED TO STUDY. IMMA HAVE TO START. Start touching books Jessica. Otherwise you're gonna phaaaaail D=<>

AND AND AND Imma take HSK this year... =/ should I take Japanese exam too?? I want to but I don't know if I'm capable enough~ xDDDD

ALSOOOOOOOO, although I still have like 45 minutes to midnight. but I doubt I'd be blogging at that time sooooooooo of courseeeeeeee HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY NINA!!! aka KURO NEKOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!! XDDDDDD

And now, I shall click "publish post"~ BAIBAI. XD

Sorry for the lack of updates peepo's~ but yea, a lot's been going on but here i am anyways. xD

Hugs, what makes them so special?

Are they your comfort zone?

Or is it because you feel special when you get hugged?

Would you feel loved and safe around the arms of people you don't know?

I don't think so...

Being hugged by the most special person in your life just makes everything so much better doesn't it?

From what is a bad day, becomes probably the best day of your life,

and what was a gloomy day just becomes a real sunny day

JUST BY A HUG FROM SOMEONE SPECIAL.

But, that someone special doesn't have to be a lover,

It could be a family member, or a friend, it could even be a pet if you teach it to hug.

But hugs have some kind of magic don't they?

They make you feel safe, and comfortable, and if you really liked that hug, you wouldn't let go.

Or wouldn't even think about letting go. In fact, it makes you keep on holding tighter.

Of course, giving hugs are also nice,

it makes you feel happy,

as you feel as though you're making so many people happy,

just by a hug,

to show you care. =)

So if you haven't hugged a person. Go hug one. Cause I definitely feel like hugging someone right now. =)

*psst*Happy 1 month anniversary. Be happy kayh?? ^^

DON'T MAKE ASSUMPTIONS. I DON'T GIVE A SHIT WHAT TIME THE CLASS IS. BUT IF ALL I DID WAS STATE A FACT, AND YOU ASSUME THAT I'M PULLING THINGS DOWN AND NOT TRYING TO MAKE AN EFFORT. THEN YOU GOT IT ALL WRONG. BUT THE LEAST YOU COULD DO WAS NOT GET PISSED OFF AND ASK ME WHAT I WAS TRYING TO EXPLAIN.

this is why, i shut up and go with the flow. because people just don't get what i say and make stupid assumptions.

Hey y'all~ Erm... technically, I'm not suppose to be like... online and BLOGGING right now... but I'm too full and I don't think I have any homework that needs to be like.... finished now... So yea...

And technically, I just got back from dinner and I'm like..... SUPER FULL. Gawsh, never thought I'd eat so much on a school night. If it were a buffet probably more believable though. xD And while eating dinner, I managed to get a glimpse of a really awesome firework show. I know it's happening around my area but it was too dark to see which area. xD

IT WAS PRETTY. XD

Anyways, there was this day, where in civics class, the teacher was telling us about marriage and families and how we'd all end up with a family one day. So she asked us to make a family tree about our kids, and like seriously, mine is still BLANK. xDD

AND AND AND, I hanged that annoying but cute kitty keychain on my phone. THANKS TO SOMEONE WHO CAME UP WITH THAT IDEA AND SHOWED IT. XD MUCH LOVES. LOOOOL but it's still annoying... =/

Oh wells, it's already 10.30pm here. Gawsh, I need to get to bed otherwise I wouldn't wake up. And have one of those panic attacks again. (btw, I forgot my name tag this morning and was ABOUT to get a panic attack, until someone who has his smartcard let me borrow it and sneakily work my way through security <3)

NIGHTS. XD

it's so fun. to torture my little bro. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA him trying to unlock my phone... it's just hilarious. xD hahahahahahahahahaha omg, can't stop laughing.... everytime i wanna do something to my phone, i unlock it, do what i what. then lock it again. LOOOOOOL HAHAHA he'll be like "nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!! c'mooooooon!!!!!!!!" HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

YES I'M TORTURING YOU LITTLE BRO. YES I AM. XD

but dont' worry, you'll get your chance... ONE DAY. XD HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

and because i'm gonna give you pity. i'll let you play. xD

p/s: to the person reading this. DO NOT TEXT MY PHONE OR I WILL GLOMP YOU. XDDDDD

kthxbai. xD

Second day of CNY. I'm kinda lazy to upload the photos.... maybe later. LOOOOOOOL erm.. yea.....

gotten my red packets, didn't count them, YET. xD hmm.... i have that urge to start every blog post with some sort of peekture...
but i don't have many.. =/ got some but they're in my phone.... and sadly the only way to get them peektures into me computer is through syncing... and i don't like that...

it's already friday.. and well, i NEED to touch my homework(s). Like seriously, I wanted to do them yesterday, but got kinda preoccupied with some other stuffs in my room... I honestly wonder how I can survive this year with so many awesome and distracting things in my room... RAWR.

in the meantime... i just got myself thinking... and I should probably STOP doing that, cause it makes me feel weird all over.
but THANK GOD it only lasts a while, that way I won't be going around torturing my poor soul into doing suicidal things. it's like... looking at your words, it's entertaining, but at the same time, sometimes, i repeat SOMETIMES it just makes me feel like I'm second choice.

yea I know, i shouldn't think about those things and blablabla and I don't. But the human mind doesn't EXACTLY let your willpower take complete control, cause somewhere in that mind, there's always a subconscious voice in there making you feel the way you are. Interesting how the human mind works no?

And like I said, it makes me feel sad, guilty and of course feeling like i'm just second but obviously I am sane enough to tell myself that, it's my life, and if i were to self-mutilate, it'll be because I'm crazy. LOL

I think that was the longest post i ever had about you. o.o but don't worry I have nothing against you. xD IMMA GOODCH HUMAN but sometimes, like what you do, I need to let it out too. Otherwise I'll be in a mental hospital by now.

BACK TO THE HAPPEYH SIDE. IT'S CNY PEEPS. IMMA TRY TO GET OUTTA MY LAZINESS TO POST THE PEEKTURES. TILL THEN, GONG XI FA CAI. XDDDD


p/s: to the person who's reading this. I'M NOT DEPRESSED KAYH? XD

Just here to wish everyone a happeyh chinese new year. May you people get tons of red packets~

So far... Its only the first day... And for me... Each cny is getting quieter and quieter... Sad no??
But it's still fun cause i still get to see all my relatives who only see me like... Once a year?? Which reminds me...
I don't remember like... All of them... Oh wells, good to know i still have relatives. XD
Um... Well... I don't exactly know what to write... Cause i currently have no feelings i'd like to burst out... But i'll see if i can take a few peektures. =)


Cheerio~

Er.... lets see....

me no likey emo posts......

but.... i do need to get it out....

erm.....

how do i say it...

DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH YOU MAKE ME GET THE WRONG IMPRESSION? GAWSH.

I keep thinking he's cheating on me or something. D=<

But he's always there to reassure me. But there are doubts sometimes.

and UNLIKE YOU, i get over them. xD

but PLEASE STOP MAKING ME FEEL THAT WAY. IT'S FRUSTRATING. D=

there i said it. NOW.

My life has been.... NICE. xD it's almost CNY and i'm happy I wasn't left out in the Najib message circulating around. xD There's a bunch of people celebrating outside.... chitchatters. xD

Um... and I still dislike math... not that I ever did like it...

Um.. there's this song... okay maybe 2 songs.... that I'm really addicted to.... probably for the night. xD And they're called "Cries In A Distance - JJ Lin and iYiYi - Cody Simpson" Not that I'm like a fan of him or anything, I just Like the SONG. LOL

Do you know 私はずっとあなたを愛する。。。

(p/s: thank you brandon k for teaching me that. xD)

BAIBAI. XD