Lessons

Back to school we go ;)

Heyy guys, sorry about Day 9&10. I was suppose to blog but my wifi seem to have hated my computer during those two days. Probably telling me to finish up my homework. xP

Regarding school, (not that I'm complaining) every wondered why teachers have such bad impressions on you? Moodswings, comments, even sometimes, their words tend to discourage you so much that you just feel like giving up?

Why do they get so mad? Why do they compare? What did we do?

Well, the answer is simple. We didn't meet their expectations. Their impression on us wasn't bad at first, but it slowly developed into that bad way that we just never understood. It's just like us, losing our temper. 

But ever wonder WHAT exactly they expect out of you? Even I don't know. Sometimes, I can get so mad at my teachers for always giving the comparison statement. Yes, we ALL dislike being compared. Some with siblings dislike it even more. But at the end of the day, everyone compares. 

Whenever someone gets mad or upset at me, I try to think, what caused them that way. What did I do to cause it? I try to understand them. Maybe a bad day? Or a tragedy happened? 

And when I actually figure it out, I managed to know, and to avoid it ever so happening again. And understanding them made the bond grow. After a fight, we make up, understand each other and forgive. 

Now here's another question: 

Why is it that so many of us, manage to forgive our family members and friends so easily, but find it so hard to forgive people who are not close to us? Instead, we have bad impressions?

I obviously don't know the exact answer but, to me, it's because we make an effort to understand our friends and family's behaviour and moods but we don't even try to bother about people who aren't close to us.

I am hypocritical because even I sometimes don't try to understand those who I don't want to understand. But as I grow, I learn that it is important, to learn, to forgive, and to understand. That way, we get used to the people around us. We know what they actually go through, and we know why, they act that certain way. 

And it's also easier to move forward. Knowing what sort of people are out there, what they want to see, what they want to hear, it's easy for us to get along. Without neglecting ourselves, we can find people who can be our best friends, soulmates, and even friends who you can count on. 

I TRY to understand people, I TRY to ask. Even when sometimes I don't, doesn't mean I don't want to try. People assume. I assume. You assume. But in truth. It's bad to assume. 

Because it makes an ass out of you(u) and me. 

I know I may be exaggerating, I know I may be saying what I might not do. But I will give an effort. And inside of me, I know this is how I feel. 

Bai. xD

Jessica. 

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Day 8

Already 8 days, 2 more to 10. Then it's the end of the holidays. For now. I still haven't completed my assignments. Determined to finish it tomorrow. I know I will. Where there's a will there's a way right? Anyways, kinda determined on making a cover too...

I really don't know what to say, you're coming back tomorrow.. Excited but don't know what to expect. Sleep early or wait till late night till you call me.. I don't know really.. I've been thinking so much this few days that right now I don't know what to think at all...

I don't know, sometimes when I think too much, I end up crying myself to sleep. It's funny how much my brain can function at doing these things but never did get to absorb much studies. My mom just told me of a philosophy saying that "once we start something, make sure we finish it, otherwise it's a step to failure." and "be sure to be ready before starting something." 

Which makes me think, am I ready for all that's going to come in the future? Am I willing to take it head on and stay strong to make sure I'll make it? 

The problem is that, we DON'T KNOW what's going to come at us. We DON'T KNOW what fate is going to throw at us. We DON'T KNOW what God has in store for us. 

The moment we KNOW, there's no need for anymore bravery because we will figure out how to avoid it. 

You know what? I'm not gonna blab anymore. Nights. 

Jessica.

<3

Something is wrong and I need to know what. 

1st September 2011, 21:39

Oh yeah, dessert. ;)

Day 7 

Starting to do homework now... bad.. LOL Holidays are ending... but homeworks aren't completely done yet. Still need to take a picture with my mom for my moral project. UGH. Honestly, why do we need so many projects? It's bound to get recycled. -.-

Went swimming again today. Feel better cause I didn't get as tired as I did on Tuesday. Hmm, should make this a weekly thing. Train my stamina. Haha And you don't fall down while swimming. If you do, then you're.. weird. Haha You can hit your head but falling down is probably when you're drowning. Haha

Feels like eating dessert. Pastries actually. Hmm... need more sugar. Kept away from stuff I shouldn't eat for quite a long time already. Controlled my diet during the holidays.. Rashes are rarely appearing already. Does this mean I need to do this for the rest of my life? -.- That's torturous. 

Getting fatter. I got heavier. I don't feel good at all. Starting to exercise. Hopefully I can get the fats out of me. Started dancing again. Feels good to move my body. Same goes for swimming. 

Hmm, the day you'll be coming back is getting closer.... HURRY UP LA. LOL xD

Anyways, off to do homework now~ BAIBAI. XD

Jessica. 

<3

No, I am not delusional. I just happened to talk to myself today. :D