I FEEL GUILTY.

wanna know why?

because You keep posting stuff online, makes me feel so guilty.

that I'm stealing... that I did bad things...

If you loved him, why didn't you tell him earlier?

Instead you make him feel so down(not always of course)

I dunno, I'm willing to give up.

Really I am.

But at the same time, I don't want to.

You make me feel So guilty.

That I really feel sorry and would let him go back to you if he wants to.

But, you keep posting that.. I will feel like crying out of guilt.

I never did, cause I learned how to keep my tears from falling.

I feel real guilty. And I hope after this post, it'll all be gone.

I don't know what else you'll be posting that'll make me feel guilty.

But I'm never gonna let myself be like you.

Who regrets everything.

Who depresses herself.

Who indirectly cause sadness to other people.

I will NEVER be like you.

So I will not cry. And just let HIM choose. =)

Whatever he chooses, be it me or you, I'll still be fine cause I still care. =)

Having second thoughts...

Good thing or a bad thing...

I dunno...

But I don't care. =)

I just live my life. xD

UGH.

I dunno why. I honestly dunno why. .

Rawr rawr rawr....

I just... wish i didn't see that statement.

I don't know if you meant it.

Go. Choose. Her.

I don't care anymore.

WHY AM I THINKING SO MUCH? D=<

it makes me moody. =/

Yo~ LOL

I'm officially 16, darn I feel so old...

But, I'll still stay young at heart. xDD

Lately, I've been thinking a lot about how I keep forgetting my mannerisms....

It kinda makes me disappointed in myself...

Everytime someone reminds me that I should've said thank you or should say please...

I keep wondering, why am I forgetting all those words.

I used to have that habit, being polite and all...

But I wonder why I lost it...

It kinda gives me the guilt that I don't appreciate what I have anymore.

But trust me, I do appreciate it..

And lately, I haven't been talking much either...

Aihs... I don't know what's going on...

But, it's still the start of the year, I can still bring that old habit back...

I can try not to change for the worse....

Actually I don't want to change for the worse...

It's sickens me... It pisses me off...

Right now, I don't feel like socialising....

Why? Cause I never did...

I don't go around making friends...

I won't talk to people unless they talk to me first...

I always was the shy and quiet one..

And I still am...

Right now, I think I'm thinking too much...

Cause it's just not about my mannerism that I'm thinking about...

It's some other classified stuff...

It worries me a lot...

Makes me rethink everything...

And finally making me feel guilty...

And the human is back~ At LEAST I blogged. xD

First week of school is over, already given homework...lots of "Academic Contracts" to copy. RAWR. Well, there isn't much to talk about... My birthday's coming up soon... and I'll be 16....

For some reason I feel old already. =P I don't like science... or math... but I wonder why I'm taking the subjects... I prefer language and art and music and dance so much more... but I'm still taking science... But I'm sure I'll be able to cope. With my awesome smart friends' help of course. And sadly music and dance aren't included in the school curriculum. T.T

Not much to say.... not much to do.... Oh wells, it's already midnight. I've gotta prepare for tomorrow. Tally Ho! xD