9th June 2011, 23:01

Sometimes,

I really do wonder,

Why can we hurt one another,

Till it causes so much hatred,

And so many conflicts...

Honestly, why are there fights? Why is there hate?

Why is there conflict? Why is there misunderstandings?

and sometimes,

Why are there emotions?

Trust me, this ain't some emo post. LOL I'm too hungry to post emo. xD Hahahaha

Holidays are ending, I gotta do my homework. Was Supposed to finish it last week, willpower faded. xD

haha anyways, I just thought about it.. about emotions.

Complicated things aren't they? We have them yet we can't understand them.

They make us do so many things,

Anger makes us hate,

Sadness makes us cry,

Love makes us do weird things,

Happiness makes us crazy,

and so much more.

But without these emotions, we wouldn't have what we have now.

Love brings us closer,

Happiness is life at it's best.

I love you all, and never want to see anything bad happen to any of you. I never pick sides. But please don't go too far till it crosses all moral values. It will cause many many more unfortunate events..

OMG I FEEL SO..... "OLD AND WISE"-ISH. URRRRGHHHHH. LOOOOOL HAHAHAAHAHAHA *strokes beard* xD

Bai. xD

Jessica. xD

7th June 2011, 23:38

Honestly, the world is just so heated up with fights. I just hate looking at them this way. I know, they did me wrong.. Partially, but i still don't like it... Makes me wanna cry... Aihs...

No mood. Why?
I. DON'T. KNOW.

Just wanna cry myself to sleep...

2nd June 2011, 14:26

Isn't he just adorable?? <3

Hahahaha~ I was so bored... so I decided to just browse through the internet.. and I got struck by it's overwhelmingly super super adorable charm. Or maybe just the way he turned out in pictures. Hahahaha~

OHMAIGAWSHHHHHHHHH!!!!! I cannot get enough of it's cutenesssssss~~ xDD Wish I have one right now... But then again, I should keep that in my wishlist.. for now.

Okay okay, this was actually just a random post cause I just needed to stop myself from saving more Mr. Danbo pictures. I think my computer would be flooded with it's pictures. I've got a huge infatuation now. Hahahahahahaha~~

OKOK. STOP. JESSICA. STOP. XD

Toodles~ <3

2nd June 2011, 00:09

Heey~ hahahaha I was bored, and I kinda wrote a story... well not exactly one... but I did write.. xD and I'm not really a good writer so please just let me know what you think. =)

I haven exactly decided on a title but decided to call it Paranoia since it was written partially out of me having paranoia over many little things. xD

PARANOIA

Prologue

“Hey! Wait up! Don’t leave me!!!” I yelled as I tried to catch up with my friends.

But, the strange thing is, they never stopped for me. Instead, they just walked on. And when they notice me getting closer to them, they speed up their pace.

“What’s going on? Why won’t they stop for me? Why are they getting away from me?” thoughts pondered in my head as I started to panic.

After a while, I gave up. I just fell on the ground on my knees, staring as they continue to walk on, pretending I never existed. To top it all off, it started to rain, and I burst into tears.

“Why? What’s going on?” I asked myself that question a million times, screaming without a care in the world.

I woke up screaming, only to find out it was all a dream. What’s more, my head was pounding like never before. I calmed myself by taking deep breaths and let reality sink in.

Since no one barged into my room eventhough I’m pretty sure the whole neighborhood could hear that ear piercing scream, I guessed that my parents has set off to work and my little siblings have gone to school. Great. I’m alone in the house. Again.

I was sure my heart almost died when I saw that it was already 9a.m. which means I was SUPER late for school but as I cleared my head, I remembered that it was a weekend.

I checked my dressing table and found a note left by my family. It read:-

We’ve gone out to buy some groceries and get some stuff done with Amy and Alex. Won’t be back till evening. Breakfast and lunch is in the fridge.

Love,

Mom and Dad.

I forced myself to leave my bed cause my stomach was grumbling and telling me that it’s hungry. I freshened up and made my way to the glorious food in the kitchen. I heated them up and delightfully gobbled it all down.

To digest it all, I couched in front of the television and browsed through the channels. Considered early for a teen, there wasn’t any shows that suited my taste. So, to burn the calories, I decided to just take a walk around the place.

I took my coat, brought some loose change and went on my way down to the shops. One thing, when I’m bored, I start eating… So technically, my calories aren’t really burning.

At the same time, I started thinking, about the dream I had. Why and What did I do to cause me to dream that nightmare.

“Maybe I’m just paranoid. I’m thinking too much.” I thought to myself.

After realizing that it wasn’t that big a deal, I brushed it off my mind and never thought about I again.

Or so I thought.

30th May 2011, 20:00

It's the holidays people! Whee!!! It's like... only the third day of the week(Sunday as the first day) and I'm already bored... zzzZZZ can't say much can I? ><

Hahahaha, honestly, it feels like it's been ages since I last blogged, but then again, the examinations took 3 weeks. I never thought I'd be so tired. Hahaha, anyways, I'm going to Ipoh on Saturday, GOSH I MISS YOU GUYS!! 8D hahahahahaha~

Oh, I changed the skin, again. xD But I changed it for reasons okayhs? xD

Well, technically, one of the reasons was that I was bored and I just happened to stumble upon this in blogskins.com <3 And, these few days, I've really learnt a lot especially about those who mean so much to you therefore the header, What is Life Without Love?

Honestly, I really can't imagine anyone's life without love.

It doesn't really have to be from a boyfriend or a special someone,

It can be from family,

and friends.

To me, I think love is really really important and really special.

Without it, I don't think I can find anyone who'd have self esteem, courage, and happiness.

And to love someone, it's not that easy.

Those people gotta really really earn it just to be loved,

They gotta earn your trust, your respect,

and it's really hard..

But once you earn that person's trust and respect,

It's easier to lose it.

Once you do, it's like your hardwork of earning it just goes away,

Just. Like. That.

That's why, it's important,

Love is what keeps us going most of the time,

It's what keeps us from losing ourselves,

It's what we treasure most of the time.

To those who think that they aren't loved,

Remember, there will always be someone who loves you,

For who you are,

For what you did,

They accept your flaws and your strong points,

They won't simply judge you,

And no matter what, they'll stand by you. =)

I love so many people in this world,

My family,

My friends,

My Life,

and

You.

I'm really grateful that I've received so much love from all of you, really appreciate it. And I will never forget it. So when you feel like all hope is lost, remember I'm always here to give you my love. xD

OMG, THAT WAS RANDOM BUT YEAH. I will, just earn it. xD ANYWAYSSSSSS~ tomorrow's the 31st so, I'D JUST LIKE TO SHOUT OUT TO THE WORLD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! MUAAAAACKS. =PPP

Love,

Jessica. xD

Hey y'all~ hahahahahaha

I know that my blogging erm... habit is like... gone... but I just wanna post... LOL

Omg omg omg omg, third week of exam... the last week.... took about a month... never thought I'd feel so tired in my life... x.x life is full of surprises no? xD hahahahaha anyways, this goes out to a friend. =)

I know you're sad... I think you're most probably crying your heart out... And I know how much it hurts to lose someone you really love. But, life is not always about it. There are always so much more things thats going to be more precious than that. =) Yes, I know right now, it's hard to get over it, but once you realise these things, get back up, and know that it's not the end of the world, and you're not alone. =) You always have me, friends and God.

And, to that other person... I'm worried... in a sense that... I don't know if it's a big enough deal to worry about... Maybe I'm thinking too much and being perasan... but yeah... I really don't know what to say...

OH WELLS. nights peeps. love you to bits. <3

first time in life that I really can't think of any words to say... new part of my brain I guess.

Post Created 7 May 2011 03:24:41

I feel... Heartbroken. Angry. Sad. All at the same time. It's now 3am and I can't sleep cause of you. Yes, YOU. The fat ass that made me cry myself to sleep.

Honestly, am I your toy? Am i just a emotionless feeling toy that you can always hurt anytime you want to? In case you haven't notice, I HAVE feelings. I accept critisms yes. And I Try my best. I tried and you can still call me hopeless. All I didn't manage to do was just ONE task. ONE. what about the other things i did?? Are they all meaningless? Are they just little minor things that you just simply made me do? AT LEAST I'M HELPING TO DO THE FRIGGIN BOARD WHEN ITS NOT MY JOB.

And library week, i help. I did my part. I tried my best. I get screwed. Like WTF? during the farewell party, I WAS NOT THE FRIGGIN PERSON WHO WAS IN CHARGE OF THE FRIGGIN INVITES. yet you screw me and called me hopeless for not finishing them. Until now, i never said anything cause i respect you and also because i accept that i was doing mistakes. I am even saying its my fault now. I AM FRIGGIN CRYING MYSELF TO SLEEP BECAUSE OF YOU.

If you think that you are doing a good job trying to make me do better, well, YOU'RE DEAD WRONG. I am not that kind of person. Once you say I'm hopeless, I believe I am and continue doing so. This is the first time I'm crying so much because of things said to me by a TEACHER. This is the first time I feel so down because of people saying I'm hopeless.

Do you know how much it hurts? Have you heard anyone say that to you? Maybe I am hopeless maybe I'm not. Maybe you were just kidding around but I wasn't. Maybe you were serious and in your eyes I am just some HOPELESS THING YOU COULD ALWAYS CALL HOPELESS.

I still have so many things but its not worth my time thinking about this anymore. Whatever.