I feel... Heartbroken. Angry. Sad. All at the same time. It's now 3am and I can't sleep cause of you. Yes, YOU. The fat ass that made me cry myself to sleep.
Honestly, am I your toy? Am i just a emotionless feeling toy that you can always hurt anytime you want to? In case you haven't notice, I HAVE feelings. I accept critisms yes. And I Try my best. I tried and you can still call me hopeless. All I didn't manage to do was just ONE task. ONE. what about the other things i did?? Are they all meaningless? Are they just little minor things that you just simply made me do? AT LEAST I'M HELPING TO DO THE FRIGGIN BOARD WHEN ITS NOT MY JOB.
And library week, i help. I did my part. I tried my best. I get screwed. Like WTF? during the farewell party, I WAS NOT THE FRIGGIN PERSON WHO WAS IN CHARGE OF THE FRIGGIN INVITES. yet you screw me and called me hopeless for not finishing them. Until now, i never said anything cause i respect you and also because i accept that i was doing mistakes. I am even saying its my fault now. I AM FRIGGIN CRYING MYSELF TO SLEEP BECAUSE OF YOU.
If you think that you are doing a good job trying to make me do better, well, YOU'RE DEAD WRONG. I am not that kind of person. Once you say I'm hopeless, I believe I am and continue doing so. This is the first time I'm crying so much because of things said to me by a TEACHER. This is the first time I feel so down because of people saying I'm hopeless.
Do you know how much it hurts? Have you heard anyone say that to you? Maybe I am hopeless maybe I'm not. Maybe you were just kidding around but I wasn't. Maybe you were serious and in your eyes I am just some HOPELESS THING YOU COULD ALWAYS CALL HOPELESS.
I still have so many things but its not worth my time thinking about this anymore. Whatever.
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