30th May 2011, 20:00

It's the holidays people! Whee!!! It's like... only the third day of the week(Sunday as the first day) and I'm already bored... zzzZZZ can't say much can I? ><

Hahahaha, honestly, it feels like it's been ages since I last blogged, but then again, the examinations took 3 weeks. I never thought I'd be so tired. Hahaha, anyways, I'm going to Ipoh on Saturday, GOSH I MISS YOU GUYS!! 8D hahahahahaha~

Oh, I changed the skin, again. xD But I changed it for reasons okayhs? xD

Well, technically, one of the reasons was that I was bored and I just happened to stumble upon this in blogskins.com <3 And, these few days, I've really learnt a lot especially about those who mean so much to you therefore the header, What is Life Without Love?

Honestly, I really can't imagine anyone's life without love.

It doesn't really have to be from a boyfriend or a special someone,

It can be from family,

and friends.

To me, I think love is really really important and really special.

Without it, I don't think I can find anyone who'd have self esteem, courage, and happiness.

And to love someone, it's not that easy.

Those people gotta really really earn it just to be loved,

They gotta earn your trust, your respect,

and it's really hard..

But once you earn that person's trust and respect,

It's easier to lose it.

Once you do, it's like your hardwork of earning it just goes away,

Just. Like. That.

That's why, it's important,

Love is what keeps us going most of the time,

It's what keeps us from losing ourselves,

It's what we treasure most of the time.

To those who think that they aren't loved,

Remember, there will always be someone who loves you,

For who you are,

For what you did,

They accept your flaws and your strong points,

They won't simply judge you,

And no matter what, they'll stand by you. =)

I love so many people in this world,

My family,

My friends,

My Life,

and

You.

I'm really grateful that I've received so much love from all of you, really appreciate it. And I will never forget it. So when you feel like all hope is lost, remember I'm always here to give you my love. xD

OMG, THAT WAS RANDOM BUT YEAH. I will, just earn it. xD ANYWAYSSSSSS~ tomorrow's the 31st so, I'D JUST LIKE TO SHOUT OUT TO THE WORLD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! MUAAAAACKS. =PPP

Love,

Jessica. xD

Hey y'all~ hahahahahaha

I know that my blogging erm... habit is like... gone... but I just wanna post... LOL

Omg omg omg omg, third week of exam... the last week.... took about a month... never thought I'd feel so tired in my life... x.x life is full of surprises no? xD hahahahaha anyways, this goes out to a friend. =)

I know you're sad... I think you're most probably crying your heart out... And I know how much it hurts to lose someone you really love. But, life is not always about it. There are always so much more things thats going to be more precious than that. =) Yes, I know right now, it's hard to get over it, but once you realise these things, get back up, and know that it's not the end of the world, and you're not alone. =) You always have me, friends and God.

And, to that other person... I'm worried... in a sense that... I don't know if it's a big enough deal to worry about... Maybe I'm thinking too much and being perasan... but yeah... I really don't know what to say...

OH WELLS. nights peeps. love you to bits. <3

first time in life that I really can't think of any words to say... new part of my brain I guess.

Post Created 7 May 2011 03:24:41

I feel... Heartbroken. Angry. Sad. All at the same time. It's now 3am and I can't sleep cause of you. Yes, YOU. The fat ass that made me cry myself to sleep.

Honestly, am I your toy? Am i just a emotionless feeling toy that you can always hurt anytime you want to? In case you haven't notice, I HAVE feelings. I accept critisms yes. And I Try my best. I tried and you can still call me hopeless. All I didn't manage to do was just ONE task. ONE. what about the other things i did?? Are they all meaningless? Are they just little minor things that you just simply made me do? AT LEAST I'M HELPING TO DO THE FRIGGIN BOARD WHEN ITS NOT MY JOB.

And library week, i help. I did my part. I tried my best. I get screwed. Like WTF? during the farewell party, I WAS NOT THE FRIGGIN PERSON WHO WAS IN CHARGE OF THE FRIGGIN INVITES. yet you screw me and called me hopeless for not finishing them. Until now, i never said anything cause i respect you and also because i accept that i was doing mistakes. I am even saying its my fault now. I AM FRIGGIN CRYING MYSELF TO SLEEP BECAUSE OF YOU.

If you think that you are doing a good job trying to make me do better, well, YOU'RE DEAD WRONG. I am not that kind of person. Once you say I'm hopeless, I believe I am and continue doing so. This is the first time I'm crying so much because of things said to me by a TEACHER. This is the first time I feel so down because of people saying I'm hopeless.

Do you know how much it hurts? Have you heard anyone say that to you? Maybe I am hopeless maybe I'm not. Maybe you were just kidding around but I wasn't. Maybe you were serious and in your eyes I am just some HOPELESS THING YOU COULD ALWAYS CALL HOPELESS.

I still have so many things but its not worth my time thinking about this anymore. Whatever.

Hahaha, honestly, according to blogger, I think this is my 100th post. Epic Phail Jessica. LOL

It's the end of April.

It's gonna be May soon.

Exams are coming.

I need to study.

Really hard.

Hey guys, I know it's kinda late to be updating now. Seeing as I'm suppose to be seriously kept busy burying my face in my books. xD Which I'm really determined on doing so. But first, I need to get some rest. Hahahaha, May's coming soon... real soon, and it's bringing the exams along with it. Rawr.

Also, it's going to be the month of my dear mummy's birthday. haha~ Wonder what I should get her.. no way I'm getting her a pillow again cause lil' bro keeps stealing them. Hahaha, and I don't want a card either. xD Hahahaha, gonna have to hunt then~ xD

I'm getting broke. D= Sad ain't it? Hahaha, time to start saving again. xD Bringing food to school is really convenient actually. xD

Hmm... the marching competition recently ended. A huge issue came up. And hopefully, they're done talking about it. We'll just prove them wrong next year. =) ST JOHN'S IS AWESOME! And.. I'm worried about my addmath and physics.... this just shows that I need to do my best. =) really wanna get some good scores this time. So I'm going to get myself to fully concentrate now.

In the meantime, I'm off to bed. Need rest badly. xD Oyasuminasai. xD

YOU CAN DO IT JESSICA!

DON'T EVER GIVE UP!

AND GET RID OF YOUR DISTRACTIONS!

<3

Jessica.

The girl who still loves life no matter what happens.

Post Created 18 Apr 2011 20:43:41

I've got nothing to say... I don't now what to feel... I don't know what to think... I just want to pretend it never crossed my mind... But I can't do that... And I don't know why... Aihs... Listening to classical music to calm myself down now... Doing addmath first... Oh the joy...









Bye... Till next time.. =]

Post Created 10 Apr 2011 11:26:15

If I'm not mistaken, this is my 100th post. =] so congratulations me. *claps* xDDD hahahahaha~ after soooo long, I've only reached 100... Sad... Yet a good achievement. Usually I'd do things halfway. Hahahaha~

Well, this past week, I've been getting screwed. Hahahaha~ it kinda got me moody the whole week. But, I came to realise that it's definitely my fault for not finishing things.. So I'm sorry for being moody about it.

I'm actually trying to get rid of my ego maniac side, cause well, it's not nice. And definitely not fair. So to all my friends who has been patient to deal with me, thanks. <3 i love you people. XDD

Anyways, I'm feeling oddly cheerful today. =] guess I've learnt how to enjoy life. I'm really grateful to whatever my parents have given me, and who I've met in my life so far. And of course, it's really great to know all of you.

Don't worry, I'm not gonna suicide. Hahahaha I'm just really thankful. =] anyways, I'm feeling awfully lazy too. I keep singing the lazy song - bruno mars. It just describes me perfectly. =ppp and, speaking of bruno mars~ I'M GONNA BE GOING TO HIS CONCERT!!!!! XDDD

Not saying that I'm like a crazy fan or anything. It's just my first time going to a concert. Yes, call me a hermit but yeah. =] and right now, I'm actually blogging with my phone. @@ Awesome things nowadays. XD

Okay, my fingers are tired now. Gonna stop. BAI. =]

Hopefully after posting this I feel a whole lot better...

It's already 11.15pm... I'm suppose to be sleeping... but for some unknown reason.. I felt like crying... Obviously, I tried to hold it in, but well, this time, it resisted... the tears just flowed down on it's own... at the same time, I feel hurt in my heart... why? I don't really know...

Maybe it's just puberty... or maybe, my body's trying to tell me something.... and that it's telling me that it's about time I stop ignoring all the messages it's been sending me.. I don't know....

I just feel like crying.... I tried not to, but too late. Already did. =)

But crying isn't exactly a bad thing now is it? It's what shows that we actually feel hurt and pain... =) And after crying our hearts out, we actually feel a whole lot better. =)

So, for sure I'm not happy I cried. CAUSE IMMA GET FISH EYES WHEN I GO TO SCHOOL. RAWR. but I'm just glad that I manage to cry part of the hurt away. Even if people aren't literally there to comfort me, it doesn't matter. I still cry to feel better.

Oh man, crying again. =.= before it gets any worse, I'm going to bed. Nights. =')

Oh. and we lasted 2 months.. congrats. =)