Hey y'all~ Erm... technically, I'm not suppose to be like... online and BLOGGING right now... but I'm too full and I don't think I have any homework that needs to be like.... finished now... So yea...

And technically, I just got back from dinner and I'm like..... SUPER FULL. Gawsh, never thought I'd eat so much on a school night. If it were a buffet probably more believable though. xD And while eating dinner, I managed to get a glimpse of a really awesome firework show. I know it's happening around my area but it was too dark to see which area. xD

IT WAS PRETTY. XD

Anyways, there was this day, where in civics class, the teacher was telling us about marriage and families and how we'd all end up with a family one day. So she asked us to make a family tree about our kids, and like seriously, mine is still BLANK. xDD

AND AND AND, I hanged that annoying but cute kitty keychain on my phone. THANKS TO SOMEONE WHO CAME UP WITH THAT IDEA AND SHOWED IT. XD MUCH LOVES. LOOOOL but it's still annoying... =/

Oh wells, it's already 10.30pm here. Gawsh, I need to get to bed otherwise I wouldn't wake up. And have one of those panic attacks again. (btw, I forgot my name tag this morning and was ABOUT to get a panic attack, until someone who has his smartcard let me borrow it and sneakily work my way through security <3)

NIGHTS. XD

it's so fun. to torture my little bro. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA him trying to unlock my phone... it's just hilarious. xD hahahahahahahahahaha omg, can't stop laughing.... everytime i wanna do something to my phone, i unlock it, do what i what. then lock it again. LOOOOOOL HAHAHA he'll be like "nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!! c'mooooooon!!!!!!!!" HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

YES I'M TORTURING YOU LITTLE BRO. YES I AM. XD

but dont' worry, you'll get your chance... ONE DAY. XD HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

and because i'm gonna give you pity. i'll let you play. xD

p/s: to the person reading this. DO NOT TEXT MY PHONE OR I WILL GLOMP YOU. XDDDDD

kthxbai. xD

Second day of CNY. I'm kinda lazy to upload the photos.... maybe later. LOOOOOOOL erm.. yea.....

gotten my red packets, didn't count them, YET. xD hmm.... i have that urge to start every blog post with some sort of peekture...
but i don't have many.. =/ got some but they're in my phone.... and sadly the only way to get them peektures into me computer is through syncing... and i don't like that...

it's already friday.. and well, i NEED to touch my homework(s). Like seriously, I wanted to do them yesterday, but got kinda preoccupied with some other stuffs in my room... I honestly wonder how I can survive this year with so many awesome and distracting things in my room... RAWR.

in the meantime... i just got myself thinking... and I should probably STOP doing that, cause it makes me feel weird all over.
but THANK GOD it only lasts a while, that way I won't be going around torturing my poor soul into doing suicidal things. it's like... looking at your words, it's entertaining, but at the same time, sometimes, i repeat SOMETIMES it just makes me feel like I'm second choice.

yea I know, i shouldn't think about those things and blablabla and I don't. But the human mind doesn't EXACTLY let your willpower take complete control, cause somewhere in that mind, there's always a subconscious voice in there making you feel the way you are. Interesting how the human mind works no?

And like I said, it makes me feel sad, guilty and of course feeling like i'm just second but obviously I am sane enough to tell myself that, it's my life, and if i were to self-mutilate, it'll be because I'm crazy. LOL

I think that was the longest post i ever had about you. o.o but don't worry I have nothing against you. xD IMMA GOODCH HUMAN but sometimes, like what you do, I need to let it out too. Otherwise I'll be in a mental hospital by now.

BACK TO THE HAPPEYH SIDE. IT'S CNY PEEPS. IMMA TRY TO GET OUTTA MY LAZINESS TO POST THE PEEKTURES. TILL THEN, GONG XI FA CAI. XDDDD


p/s: to the person who's reading this. I'M NOT DEPRESSED KAYH? XD

Just here to wish everyone a happeyh chinese new year. May you people get tons of red packets~

So far... Its only the first day... And for me... Each cny is getting quieter and quieter... Sad no??
But it's still fun cause i still get to see all my relatives who only see me like... Once a year?? Which reminds me...
I don't remember like... All of them... Oh wells, good to know i still have relatives. XD
Um... Well... I don't exactly know what to write... Cause i currently have no feelings i'd like to burst out... But i'll see if i can take a few peektures. =)


Cheerio~

Er.... lets see....

me no likey emo posts......

but.... i do need to get it out....

erm.....

how do i say it...

DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH YOU MAKE ME GET THE WRONG IMPRESSION? GAWSH.

I keep thinking he's cheating on me or something. D=<

But he's always there to reassure me. But there are doubts sometimes.

and UNLIKE YOU, i get over them. xD

but PLEASE STOP MAKING ME FEEL THAT WAY. IT'S FRUSTRATING. D=

there i said it. NOW.

My life has been.... NICE. xD it's almost CNY and i'm happy I wasn't left out in the Najib message circulating around. xD There's a bunch of people celebrating outside.... chitchatters. xD

Um... and I still dislike math... not that I ever did like it...

Um.. there's this song... okay maybe 2 songs.... that I'm really addicted to.... probably for the night. xD And they're called "Cries In A Distance - JJ Lin and iYiYi - Cody Simpson" Not that I'm like a fan of him or anything, I just Like the SONG. LOL

Do you know 私はずっとあなたを愛する。。。

(p/s: thank you brandon k for teaching me that. xD)

BAIBAI. XD

I FEEL GUILTY.

wanna know why?

because You keep posting stuff online, makes me feel so guilty.

that I'm stealing... that I did bad things...

If you loved him, why didn't you tell him earlier?

Instead you make him feel so down(not always of course)

I dunno, I'm willing to give up.

Really I am.

But at the same time, I don't want to.

You make me feel So guilty.

That I really feel sorry and would let him go back to you if he wants to.

But, you keep posting that.. I will feel like crying out of guilt.

I never did, cause I learned how to keep my tears from falling.

I feel real guilty. And I hope after this post, it'll all be gone.

I don't know what else you'll be posting that'll make me feel guilty.

But I'm never gonna let myself be like you.

Who regrets everything.

Who depresses herself.

Who indirectly cause sadness to other people.

I will NEVER be like you.

So I will not cry. And just let HIM choose. =)

Whatever he chooses, be it me or you, I'll still be fine cause I still care. =)

Having second thoughts...

Good thing or a bad thing...

I dunno...

But I don't care. =)

I just live my life. xD