Lessons

Back to school we go ;)

Heyy guys, sorry about Day 9&10. I was suppose to blog but my wifi seem to have hated my computer during those two days. Probably telling me to finish up my homework. xP

Regarding school, (not that I'm complaining) every wondered why teachers have such bad impressions on you? Moodswings, comments, even sometimes, their words tend to discourage you so much that you just feel like giving up?

Why do they get so mad? Why do they compare? What did we do?

Well, the answer is simple. We didn't meet their expectations. Their impression on us wasn't bad at first, but it slowly developed into that bad way that we just never understood. It's just like us, losing our temper. 

But ever wonder WHAT exactly they expect out of you? Even I don't know. Sometimes, I can get so mad at my teachers for always giving the comparison statement. Yes, we ALL dislike being compared. Some with siblings dislike it even more. But at the end of the day, everyone compares. 

Whenever someone gets mad or upset at me, I try to think, what caused them that way. What did I do to cause it? I try to understand them. Maybe a bad day? Or a tragedy happened? 

And when I actually figure it out, I managed to know, and to avoid it ever so happening again. And understanding them made the bond grow. After a fight, we make up, understand each other and forgive. 

Now here's another question: 

Why is it that so many of us, manage to forgive our family members and friends so easily, but find it so hard to forgive people who are not close to us? Instead, we have bad impressions?

I obviously don't know the exact answer but, to me, it's because we make an effort to understand our friends and family's behaviour and moods but we don't even try to bother about people who aren't close to us.

I am hypocritical because even I sometimes don't try to understand those who I don't want to understand. But as I grow, I learn that it is important, to learn, to forgive, and to understand. That way, we get used to the people around us. We know what they actually go through, and we know why, they act that certain way. 

And it's also easier to move forward. Knowing what sort of people are out there, what they want to see, what they want to hear, it's easy for us to get along. Without neglecting ourselves, we can find people who can be our best friends, soulmates, and even friends who you can count on. 

I TRY to understand people, I TRY to ask. Even when sometimes I don't, doesn't mean I don't want to try. People assume. I assume. You assume. But in truth. It's bad to assume. 

Because it makes an ass out of you(u) and me. 

I know I may be exaggerating, I know I may be saying what I might not do. But I will give an effort. And inside of me, I know this is how I feel. 

Bai. xD

Jessica. 

<3

Love, Love, Love

the things I love to do the most =)

Day 8

Already 8 days, 2 more to 10. Then it's the end of the holidays. For now. I still haven't completed my assignments. Determined to finish it tomorrow. I know I will. Where there's a will there's a way right? Anyways, kinda determined on making a cover too...

I really don't know what to say, you're coming back tomorrow.. Excited but don't know what to expect. Sleep early or wait till late night till you call me.. I don't know really.. I've been thinking so much this few days that right now I don't know what to think at all...

I don't know, sometimes when I think too much, I end up crying myself to sleep. It's funny how much my brain can function at doing these things but never did get to absorb much studies. My mom just told me of a philosophy saying that "once we start something, make sure we finish it, otherwise it's a step to failure." and "be sure to be ready before starting something." 

Which makes me think, am I ready for all that's going to come in the future? Am I willing to take it head on and stay strong to make sure I'll make it? 

The problem is that, we DON'T KNOW what's going to come at us. We DON'T KNOW what fate is going to throw at us. We DON'T KNOW what God has in store for us. 

The moment we KNOW, there's no need for anymore bravery because we will figure out how to avoid it. 

You know what? I'm not gonna blab anymore. Nights. 

Jessica.

<3

Something is wrong and I need to know what. 

1st September 2011, 21:39

Oh yeah, dessert. ;)

Day 7 

Starting to do homework now... bad.. LOL Holidays are ending... but homeworks aren't completely done yet. Still need to take a picture with my mom for my moral project. UGH. Honestly, why do we need so many projects? It's bound to get recycled. -.-

Went swimming again today. Feel better cause I didn't get as tired as I did on Tuesday. Hmm, should make this a weekly thing. Train my stamina. Haha And you don't fall down while swimming. If you do, then you're.. weird. Haha You can hit your head but falling down is probably when you're drowning. Haha

Feels like eating dessert. Pastries actually. Hmm... need more sugar. Kept away from stuff I shouldn't eat for quite a long time already. Controlled my diet during the holidays.. Rashes are rarely appearing already. Does this mean I need to do this for the rest of my life? -.- That's torturous. 

Getting fatter. I got heavier. I don't feel good at all. Starting to exercise. Hopefully I can get the fats out of me. Started dancing again. Feels good to move my body. Same goes for swimming. 

Hmm, the day you'll be coming back is getting closer.... HURRY UP LA. LOL xD

Anyways, off to do homework now~ BAIBAI. XD

Jessica. 

<3

No, I am not delusional. I just happened to talk to myself today. :D

31st August 2011, 22:49

I love singing. 

But why don't I have the courage to tell the world?

Day 6

Wow, it's already Wednesday. The days just pass by so fast. Which means I need to start finishing my homework already. Boohoohoo It's okay. I'll do it. I have time. I'll make use of it. Just need to put a mental note to get my mom to pose for my moral project. HAHA 

I don't want to get back to school so fast... Not when I have so much time to go to the club, and chill, and swim. UGH. D= But it IS better than working I guess... heck, I've got so much free time now that I can practice my dance. xD

Miss my dance, Miss swimming, Miss tennis, Miss you, Miss me, Miss my friends, Miss my family, Miss my vacation. HAHAHAHA 

Today was fun actually. Sorry, I'm kinda lazy to upload photos today. Went to Ficelle at 11 to meet up with friends. Got cake-wasted there till 1.30-ish, then became the oh-so-awesome "drunk driver" and went to Kiki's place. Haha since I was the transport of Hwu Ning, I had to go to her place and in the end, dragging Yeh Yang and Brandon along! HAHAHAHA Stayed there till 3.45. There were like, 3 corners in the house. The emo corner, the classical corner and the computer corner. 2 people at each corner. 

It was funny actually. xD Hwu Ning came over to wait for her mom. Had an enjoyable day actually. xD Looking forward to swimming tomorrow with Candace. 8) Till then peeps~ xD

Jessica. 

<3

Few. More. Days. 

30th August 2011, 21:45

Greetings =)

Day 5

Heeheehee~ half way there. xD Not waiting for holidays to finish though. Don't wanna finish work. x.x Haha but going to eventually. Anyways, Selamat Hari Raya and Happy Independence Day to everyone in Malaysia. xD Before anything else, let's just take a moment to appreciate our forefathers' sufferings and efforts to make Malaysia to what it is today..

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OKAY. Now, day 5. I'm dead tired. LOL Went out, walked, swam, ate, and prepared for tuition tomorrow. Ugh. Then I've still got my moral project and addmaths and maths? @.@ OH AND MY ACCOUNTS. D= 

I'll survive. Going out again tomorrow for lunch to spend time with my awesome friends. xD I'm gonna get CAKE-WASTED!! XD Got a dinner tomorrow too. xD Hope I can find the time to swim tomorrow. IWANNAKEEPFIT. 8D 

Oh oh oh, Don't worry, I missed you. IF YOU MISS ME. TEEHEE. But managed to keep my mind off it. Ain't I just oh so awesome? Suddenly, I feel like studying. But at the same time, I feel like laying on my bed and dozing off to sleep. Like I said, DEAD.TIRED. 

Sis still ain't back yet. She gonna be in troublee~~ LOL Well, honestly I wouldn't wanna stay out that late either. -,- Don't know what she's up to nowadays. xD 

Anyways, WILL TAKE LOADS OF PICTURES TOMORROW WHILE GETTING CAKE-WASTED. Hopefully. xD Till then~~~ 

oh btw, shoe hunting failed. AGAIN. aihs, gonna wait till I get to go out with momma agaain. T3T

Nyways, TATA. xD

Jessica. 

<3

Dei, come online boleh tak?? xD

29th August 2011, 22:17

Oh glorious food <3

Day 4

Hahaha wow today passed by fast. Was out the whole day. Shoe hunting didn't work. Hopefully it will tomorrow. <3 

I really miss you... even if I'm not crying yet but I still miss you... Waiting for you to come online but obviously you're too tired to come online. It's okay. At least you're having fun. So am I. xD Hahahaha wonder what you bought. Must be some awesome stuff. It must be really nice there. Waiting for the pictures. So I can go there. xD *fingers crossed* I just hope that I can chat to you tomorrow. TEEHEE. =)

Anyways, the next part of the post will be dedicated to my close friend who's loved one has recently passed. I know it's hard for you and I'm pretty sure you won't read this anyways but I just want to let you know that your friends will always be here for you no matter what. Your loved one will always be watching you from above and he's already in a happy place so stay strong. Be strong that he won't be sad from wherever he is and so that he can happily watch over you and your family. Remember, we are always here if you need someone to go to. God Bless You and Your Family. <3

Haha, anyways phew today was really tiring. Went to the dentist. Did the x-ray.. next appointments are extractions.. NOT FUN. ESPECIALLY when you have phobia for needles. Ugh. Feels dizzy thinking about it. I only hope its all going to be worth it. =/ Then went shoe hunting. But to no avail. aihsss... then came home, and played ping pong. Thought of cleaning my bike but had no time. Then went out for dinner with family and roamed around town. Always loved doing that, seeing all the lights especially with your family. =) and finally, I'm here. HAHA

Going out tomorrow to Sunway. Hope I can find shoes there. >.< Oh wells, I'm exhausted. Nighties. <3

Jessica.

<3

I really miss you... 

28th August 2011, 21:53

My New Pencil Case 8)

Day 3

Haha~ Survived. It's a good thing. Not breaking down yet. xD Shows that I trust you. =PPP hahaha

Nyways, today, tennis was cancelled. Since it rained a little. So visited my great-grandma and when we reached there, we found out that my great-grandma and her roommate had a fight. Haha long story. xD After that my great-grandma was actually like... alert.

Cause she was mentioning about sis and bro's colour tone. She was like "Ah Yuk more darker than Ah Fai hor? Ah Yuk follow her dad la" Hahahahaha I was about to laugh when I saw sis's face. Then she went on to telling my dad about her swollen foot. 

According to my mom, it's water retention. But surprisingly, my great-grandma can still talk right, eat right, see right(one eye working), walk right and her hair is still a little partially DARK GREY. And she's 95 this year. LOL Awesome great-grandma. So lucky to have her. =) 

Then as we were about to leave, she commented on bro's muscles and my FAT. D= I was like.... NOOOOOOOOOO~ Hahahahaha 

After the visit, we just came home and stoned. Haha Like seriously. We stoned. xD 

Anyways, I miss you, You miss me, I'm fine. xD Waiting for you to appear on fb. But don't think that's happening anytime soon. Oh wells, shall sleep early tonight. <3 

BAIBAI. 

Jessica. 

<3