9th August 2011, 20:42

Chapter 2 – The Thoughts (Part 2)

Up until then, another thought hit me. It was about losing my friends. Lately, I’ve been causing a lot of trouble. I don’t know why. It just seems that every word that comes out of my mouth, just brings trouble.

It’s not that I didn’t try to stop it. It’s just that I couldn’t. No matter how hard I try, nothing right comes out. And worst of all, whenever I try to make things better, it just gets worse.

“Maybe it’s time to go away again… for now… sort things out…” I said to myself. But what if it makes things worse? What will happen then?

Up until now, I decided to go with the flow. Indeed I was, but things still seem to be changing. Either it’s me or it’s all of us. At one point, we were all stressed out and frustrated and I thought that after all that, we’d be back together close.

But things still happen. It just wouldn’t stop. I feel as if I’ve been jinxed or something. But of course, when these things do happen, I do wonder, who’s wrong?

I may be wrong, since I’ve been the one causing it. But I did have my point. So who was the winning end? I guess the whole thing could be my fault, since I ended up apologizing. But at the same time, I feel as if, I’m a dummy.

As I was about to dig further into my thoughts, my phone started to ring.

“Urgh… why now??” I quickly tried to fix my hoarse voice since I just finished tearing as I was thinking.

“Hey dear, it’s check-up time~” chimed Alan’s voice. As usual, he’s in his normal, cheery self.

“Hey, I already texted you that I’m fine. Why go through all the trouble? You’re stoning aren’t you?” I replied, hoping he wouldn’t hear my weird voice.

“No, I was still worried. And did you cry?” He asked. Damn, he noticed.

“Um.. maybe?” I said, adding a little laugh like I always do.

“You did. You alright? Want me to come over?” He asked as if I was about to die or something.

“No need. I’m fine~ Seriously~ Was only thinking. Not like I'm self mutilating.” I reassured him.

“Okay… but is it alright if I come over later? I wanna get out of the house.” He asked.

“Sure? You always come here. Honestly, are you like, addicted or something? My house ain’t got no crack you know.” I teased him a little.

“Haha, it’s not your house, it’s You that’s my drug.” He replied. Almost immediately, I kept quiet and blushed.

“Aww, so sweet. Anyways, see you later kay? I wanna wash my face.” I said.

“Okay. See you.” And with that, the call ended.

“Okay, I guess I’ll think again later. I wouldn’t wanna end up crying again.” I said to myself and hurried into the bathroom. 

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Hahahahaha yeah.... that's the story. Exam's coming. Clueless about what to do. Things are happening. It's taking time to sink in. Yeah. =/ maybe I'm just that bad. 

Oh wells, I'll figure this out somehow. Till then. 

Jessica. 

I wonder why all these happen at times... 

Can't we all just leave in peace?

I know it's impossible...

2nd June 2011, 00:09

Heey~ hahahaha I was bored, and I kinda wrote a story... well not exactly one... but I did write.. xD and I'm not really a good writer so please just let me know what you think. =)

I haven exactly decided on a title but decided to call it Paranoia since it was written partially out of me having paranoia over many little things. xD

PARANOIA

Prologue

“Hey! Wait up! Don’t leave me!!!” I yelled as I tried to catch up with my friends.

But, the strange thing is, they never stopped for me. Instead, they just walked on. And when they notice me getting closer to them, they speed up their pace.

“What’s going on? Why won’t they stop for me? Why are they getting away from me?” thoughts pondered in my head as I started to panic.

After a while, I gave up. I just fell on the ground on my knees, staring as they continue to walk on, pretending I never existed. To top it all off, it started to rain, and I burst into tears.

“Why? What’s going on?” I asked myself that question a million times, screaming without a care in the world.

I woke up screaming, only to find out it was all a dream. What’s more, my head was pounding like never before. I calmed myself by taking deep breaths and let reality sink in.

Since no one barged into my room eventhough I’m pretty sure the whole neighborhood could hear that ear piercing scream, I guessed that my parents has set off to work and my little siblings have gone to school. Great. I’m alone in the house. Again.

I was sure my heart almost died when I saw that it was already 9a.m. which means I was SUPER late for school but as I cleared my head, I remembered that it was a weekend.

I checked my dressing table and found a note left by my family. It read:-

We’ve gone out to buy some groceries and get some stuff done with Amy and Alex. Won’t be back till evening. Breakfast and lunch is in the fridge.

Love,

Mom and Dad.

I forced myself to leave my bed cause my stomach was grumbling and telling me that it’s hungry. I freshened up and made my way to the glorious food in the kitchen. I heated them up and delightfully gobbled it all down.

To digest it all, I couched in front of the television and browsed through the channels. Considered early for a teen, there wasn’t any shows that suited my taste. So, to burn the calories, I decided to just take a walk around the place.

I took my coat, brought some loose change and went on my way down to the shops. One thing, when I’m bored, I start eating… So technically, my calories aren’t really burning.

At the same time, I started thinking, about the dream I had. Why and What did I do to cause me to dream that nightmare.

“Maybe I’m just paranoid. I’m thinking too much.” I thought to myself.

After realizing that it wasn’t that big a deal, I brushed it off my mind and never thought about I again.

Or so I thought.